Can You Identify This Spider?

Wednesday morning, I walked into my apartment and straight into a spider web. It's a terribly icky feeling, but one I've grown used to. When you do a newspaper delivery route, you learn the hard way not to walk between trees and that sometimes there's no choice but to stick your hand right into a spider web and hope for the best. So I've had to summon all my bravery many times this summer and just deal with icky insects, but it was an unpleasant surprise to have to do so in my own home.

I thought nothing more of it until a few minutes later, when I felt a sharp pain in my neck. I freaked out, slapping at my clothes and running to the bathroom to see if I could spot a spider on my in the sink mirror. When I leaned over, something small fell off me and into the sink. It was a spider! I had actually been bitten by a spider. I could hardly believe it. I took a good look at it, then went to research what kinds of spiders in Florida are venomous. The outlook was good that I would survive until morning.

I then took some pictures of the spider so that if I developed superpowers or died in my sleep, doctors would have some information. At this point, I'm just curious to know what little beasts are living in my precious home. Anyone who can provide info on what kind of spider this might be will get lots of brownie points! (Click to view the pictures larger.)

Senka

I saw you today
Standing
Reflected in a car window
White sundress and a ponytail
With an expression I couldn't decipher
Full grown, like I'd never imagined
In my head you're always a baby

Do you hate me
For not saving you?

You, shadow on a wall
Arms crossed, face hidden
Still lost

I should've fought harder
For your life

You're waiting
I can feel it
My eyes are blurred
My voice not my own
I've been a stranger since that day

DSED #12: Advice to My Past Self

"Give advice to yourself in the past."

Oooh, boy. I've actually done something like this before, but it was way too depressing and melodramatic. So here we go again:

• If you're flying with Spirit airlines, take your time getting to the airport.
• Be more careful with your external hard drives.
• Having a job is actually pretty awesome. Stop being such a wussy.
• Let people take pictures of you. (No, really.)
• Always wait till morning to make important decisions. Or any decision, really.
• Don't admit anything until you know what evidence they have.
• Drink more water. No, more than that.
• Having a few close friends is nice, but you can be left alone before you know it. Keep in touch with lots of people so you'll always have a support group.
• Put your book down when you go on trips.
• Don't be so bitter. Life hurts, it's not anyone's fault.
• Just breathe!

DSED #11: A Precious Memory

Today's assignment was to throw away a precious memory. I'm kind of a hoarder and I have a shoebox filled with little trinkets that represents memories to me. I wrote this assignment as a kind of self-torture (because I'm masochistic like that) but I'm using it now as therapy. The memory I chose to throw away was this one:

The flowered crown was a prop I used in my Tribute to Aisling video that I made for Kiera Cass's first I Want Your Name contest. I made the video with my best friend at the time. We are no longer friends (to put the entire situation lightly) and I'm making every effort to move on without becoming an angry, bitter person. So here's to hoping that throwing this memory away will help me recover a little bit more.

The actual Tribute to Aisling video is too embarrassingly awful to share here, but I do have some bloopers that show the crown in action:

DSED #10: An Embarrassing Poem

It's been over a year since the last time I did a DSED assignment. It's taken that long for me to catch my breath after getting a seven-days-a-week job and starting college again and moving out for the first time. But things are slowing down (or I'm getting used to the faster pace) and I'm ready to start again!

Today's assignment is to post my most embarrassing poem on this blog. That's kind of difficult because at last count I have 318 poems in my "archive" (aka a private blog dedicated to recording all my poetry). And at least half of them are pretty darn embarrassing. So I picked one at random that I can't read without cringing.

It's titled "Kagome" and was part of a series of poems I wrote for the characters from InuYasha. See? I'm cringing already...

I feel so lost inside,

I'm fighting a battle that's already been won,

I want to go home and hide,

Why can't I be normal and just have fun?

Sometimes I wish I was ugly,

Then my choices wouldn't be so hard,

Not many guys would like me,

And I would be free to follow my heart.

But without my beauty and miko powers,

I wouldn't have InuYasha to love,

He's not romantic, and he never brings flowers,

But he shows he cares with a push and a shove.

I love him through all of his flaws,

Through all the good times and the bad,

Especially his ears and his claws,

And when he's not near I am sad.