Grief

When you first lose something you loved... a precious object, a family member, a belief... the grief is so strong because you don't know how to go on without it. They say time heals but I think the reality is that we keep going and we learn that we can live without the thing we once held dear. The pain exists because we think we need the thing to survive, and as we continue our lives the pain fades because we discover that we didn't need it as much as we thought.

I Will

I will be strong.
I will do things I do not want to do.
Even if I fail and fail again, I will not quit.
I will succeed in the end.
I will keep my faith, even when I don't act it.
I will set goals and achieve them.

I want to cry out from the wanting,
This desire I have to be the best,
My best.
I will learn, I will grow, I will do.
Every day I will look back and realize
That I've arrived where yesterday I was pining to be.
My arms will carry heavy loads,
My legs will move with strength and grace,
I will smile at everyone and forgive.

There was a person I imagined as a child.
I will be that person.